I am so sorry that you are going through this.  I promise that things will get better with time.

My ex GD husband is still in the closet.  The more I tried to pull him out, the more he hid inside.  I guess I pushed a little too much because he filed for divorce two weeks after our last conversation about his sexual orientation.

We just reached a settlement on the 15th of this month.  He became very nasty during the divorce he even blocked me via text, phone and on Twitter.  He also didn’t tell me that he filed until the processor server showed up at my door.  I call him my gay, coward, greedy exhusband.  I’ll be so happy when the judge signs the divorce decree so I can finally be done with him.

At the time we were both Mormon (I left the Mormon church in 2013 ).  He used me as a beard and knew that my family had money.  I was angry during the majority of our sexless marriage.  He refused to communicate about anything and accused of me being  a nympho when I wanted sex at least twice a month.   My self esteem suffered over the almost 27 years of marriage. 

Im glad you have spoken to an attorney to protect yourself.  Please don’t expect it to be a friendly divorce.  And yes, attorneys are expensive, but worth it at the end.

Last edited by FinallyFree2 (May 23, 2023 4:56 pm)

Hi Elle!

I have been reading your posts and keeping up with your journey, I'm so glad for you!

As for me, still having the ups and downs but keeping on. We have ironed out most of the divorce terms it seems, now just have to do the paperwork. Still overwhelmed by the process.

I find I have moments where I feel numb and dissociated now. I think this is my bordering on acceptance point. I went through denial, a hell of a lot of anger, and a deep depression. I'm now starting to look at what life is now and think a bit about the future.

I made a lot of mistakes and rash decisions in the past year. I lost a lot of people who I thought were a part of my life. I lashed out. I bounced from being so low I couldn't get off the floor to having days where I could smile. More than anything I feel like I just have this deep exhaustion. Like every cell in my body has run a million marathons.