OurPath (formerly SSN) Open Forum / 2023

**Posted by Clif** January 1, 2023 3:50 pm

Just wanted to stop by and wish everyone a Happy New Years. Hope everyone has a better 2023 than 2022 was.

Be well,
Clif

**Posted by clintonia** January 1, 2023 4:00 pm

Happy New Year, all! Wishing everyone a happier, healthy and personally fulfilling 2023.

I didn't log on much in 2022, but come back occasionally to read others' stories when I feel I need it. Thanks for sharing.

Last edited by clintonia (January 1, 2023 4:02 pm)

**Posted by Ellexoh_nz** January 2, 2023 12:12 pm

My life feels empty. Just these damn thoughts persistently hammering away and consuming any chance to think a normal happy thought.

I can't remember the last time the Mindfuck wasn't the first thought I had when waking. How do I come back from that? I don't. There's only one path in front of me and it doesn't seem to lead anywhere.

**Posted by Cultivate_gratitude** January 2, 2023 12:51 pm

Ellexoh_nz wrote:
My life feels empty. Just these damn thoughts persistently hammering away and consuming any chance to think a normal happy thought.

I can't remember the last time the Mindfuck wasn't the first thought I had when waking. How do I come back from that? I don't. There's only one path in front of me and it doesn't seem to lead anywhere.

Wow - sounds like we have a lot in common if you’d been decent enough to read an entire thread before coming at me with hate.

Maybe Go to the doctor…. Sounds like you could use medication.

**Posted by walkbymyself** January 4, 2023 1:07 pm

Ellexoh: I hear you. I'm in the "what am I alive for now?" phase of things.

**Posted by Ellexoh_nz** January 4, 2023 2:17 pm

walkbymyself wrote:
Ellexoh: I hear you. I'm in the "what am I alive for now?" phase of things.

And I hear you too Walk (I sent you a message)
"this Mindfuck has changed me so much that internally, no matter how good my life is, how many people around me, how easy the rest of my time on earth is... It will always be empty inside me"

Elle

**Posted by Anon2222** January 4, 2023 3:13 pm

I too am stuck in the "what is the point" phase. I just feel blah. Going through the motions, the whole what am I even here for.

I had plans. A life. Hobbies. Now I just work a lot. And have conversations with my pets (my Aunt put it eloquently as no one can say you're talking to yourself when you say you're talking to your dog lol).

Doesn't help that my dog just died....