Hello all-

In case you don’t hear it from anyone else, I wanted to wish you all a Happy Valentine’s Day, with the hope that one day, we can all feel loved and appreciated they way we should.

My timeline is blurred, but this is either the 14th or 15 Valentine’s Day with my GIDH. I was so infatuated with him, but I excused so much.

Valentine’s Day was always just... another day here. I worked as a waitress for so many years, so I very rarely had the day off. But the lack of interest in trying to put forth much effort at all dulled me. I just assumed he wasn’t very romantic. I assumed he just wanted to save money.
But yeah-I don’t think it was that. He just doesn’t feel romance with me. He says he loves me- and I know he loved me enough to try to deny himself... but there always was and always will be something missing.
And the catch 22 is now, if he tries, it will just feel like manipulation. Another ploy to try to win me back.
But I feel so broken inside, I don’t think I can be won back. And now that I know why there was hardly any romance... it just makes sense.

So Happy Valentine’s Day to those of us just trying to survive, and longing to be romanced, but who can’t open our hearts to the ones we thought was supposed to romance us all along.