So today, I admit it, I checked my husband's texts and he texted a picture of a very funny picture that he and I took on our walk.  It was supposed to look like a candle in Christmas lights but it looks very much like a penis in someone's window.  So we had a good laugh about it but today I saw that he texted this picture to his ex lover and said it was Hustler's Christmas light display or something like that.  He texted it to other friends too as a joke.  I notice that his ex lover did not text him back.

I'm not sure if I'm over reacting, but I am jealous because I think no contact should mean no contact.  He told me he would have no contact with him.  

We have been doing well overall.  We've been working on our marriage and really talking a lot and close physically.  I am aware enough to realize that his bi feelings don't just go away.  He still has desire for this man, I think.  He is wrestling with this as am I.  I am not sure whether to ask him about this or let it go.  If I bring it up it will most surely cause a fight as I read his texts and he will feel that the christmas light thing is a joke....

I don't know, I think I may never be able to get over this and really trust which is terrible because my husband and I are very close despite all of this.  Aaaargh!