Hi Mothersee.  This is my first time responding too.  I can relate to you.  My husband started cross dressing months ago.  At first I thought he was just playing, having fun, but then I would come home and he was dressed in a blouse, skirt, makeup on.  It was so triggering for me too.  Recently he admitted to me he identifies mostly as a woman.  I didn't realize it would come to this. I'm really struggling to know what i want, how I feel about this and it's all very confusing.  I have cried a lot and felt angry too.  What does my future hold, is what i keep asking myself.