I am so sorry you are in this position, but you are and so hang on here and keep talking.
The point I want to make is you only have one body. The depth of your crushedness is testament to your strength and endurance but it is also testament to the level of emotional punishment you have been on the receiving end of.
we spend so much time wondering if we are being loving enough (thank you Mr Gaslighter) and don't get to the question of how much loving are we receiving.
It was my lawyer who told me he was being emotionally abusive and financially abusive towards me. Oh. I had never heard those terms or realised I was in an abusive relationship at all - I thought it was all my fault (thank you Mr Gaslighter) that I felt so crushed.
Only one body. Put yourself first for a bit. Keep in communion with your gut instincts.
