I often sit and wonder how my life ended up this way. The deceit, lies with a closeted person that so selfishly betrayed and hurt me.
My sister forwarded me a message she saw on MoonOmens Instagram page and this explains it all.

Maybe right now your journey isn't about love.
Maybe right now your journey is about you.
Maybe this is the season you are being challenged to be your own savior, to be your own safe place.
Maybe right now you are being reminded - that the people who walked away were only ever leading you back to yourself, were only ever leading you here. 
And here, you are okay on your own.
Here, you are rebuilding. 
Here, you are adapting, and mending, and reclaiming all of the pieces you let them walk away with.
Here, you are being kinder to your soul, you are giving youself the same kind of love you have always given to others.
Here, you are not rushing your heart, you are not depending on another human being to fix it.
Instead, here you are doing that on your own.
Here, you are healing.

As everyone navigates their own journey to recovery, hope the light out of the darkness emerges a new you!  Wishing you all well!