Hi. My first post here. I met my husband when I was 17 and he was 30. We married when I was 22 and had a child around 5 years into our marriage. Long story short. I knew he was gay though he always denied it to me. He came out to his son when son was a teen.

I mostly remained on good terms with him. He had several partners, and last partner before he died was for 11  years.

I had a couple relationships after the divorce, but none of them "the one". Some were quite unhealthy so I got out.

I have realised that I never got over my husband. I'm so devastated. He died  early March from cancer and were were in contact.

I woke this morning crying. Ok have so many regrets and so sad.