OurPath (formerly SSN) Open Forum / Going away... it feels okay

**Posted by Ellexoh_nz** January 3, 2021 12:17 pm

I'm off on a break for 5 weeks to see my family in different areas of NZ. For the last 15 years I've hated going away from home, even declining a paid-for trip to the US with my daughter simply because I felt if I left my partner would be happy I was gone (boy oh boy and there's a lot to unpack there!)
But this morning I fly off to my sons, then my daughters, after that to my sisters and I have no heavy sick feeling in my stomach.

To be continued.....

Elle

**Posted by inkundermyskin** January 3, 2021 2:08 pm

congrats and safe travels!!!!!!!

**Posted by Stronger** January 3, 2021 2:47 pm

Proud of you! Have a great trip!

**Posted by SusanneH** January 3, 2021 4:36 pm

Enjoy yourself. Try to forget your daily troubles for awhile. I know if I could do it, I sure would. Take advantage of this gift you’ve been given!! Laugh, be free, love life, live!

Have fun & enjoy your children.

(((HUGS)))

**Posted by MyExodus** January 4, 2021 10:29 am

"I have no heavy sick feeling in my stomach."

Elle

Isn't it telling? I get that feeling of becoming ill when thinking of going "home?" Even though my daughters and my things are still there, I don't want to go home, makes me a bit quesy when heading there. My late brother's home is about to become mine and it is becoming more and more what I think of as "home." In it there will be no lying, absolutely NONE. Elle, I think it is a sign of healing, a sign that your body, brain and heart are trying to purge itself of the toxicity. Godspeed. Enjoy the fresh air.

**Posted by Ellexoh_nz** January 4, 2021 9:39 pm

I'm not 24hrs into my trip away and I see in our shared Google history .,... Adult shop.., Peaches & Cream....Locanto ( sex site ).

I'm no longer shocked, sad or angry. Rather I'm determined to move forward and away from a life I no longer want

😔

**Posted by inkundermyskin** January 4, 2021 10:35 pm

fuck him.

**Posted by Ellexoh_nz** January 5, 2021 2:16 am

inkundermyskin wrote:
fuck him.

Yeah Ink... that's it, that's what he will be looking for. And as he won't get it from me., he should get it from somebody else. Be it a woman or man

Elle

Last edited by Ellexoh_nz (January 5, 2021 2:23 am)

**Posted by inkundermyskin** January 5, 2021 6:10 am

yeah. once i hit submit, i was waiting for that response. thoughts of you as you move on from your old life, and to a new, honest, fulfilling life for you. somehow, someway. as a straight man, that only wishes now to have been with honest straight women like those of you on here, i stand by my original comment.
fuck him.

**Posted by Rob** January 5, 2021 9:25 pm

Elle,

Yeah at some point I stopped looking...I knew I would find just more bad stuff. It certainly shows their mindset, values, beliefs etc. more than any words they can say to us.

I say enjoy your trip and know that you did all you could. I know you will be around genuine people where you don't have to wonder or search their browser histories.

Thoughts and prayers.