blindone wrote:

.....what IS the thing in my brain that seems to want to protect him and prevents me from telling him family?.......

Loyalty.....stopped me. Stops me. But it's a loyalty that's not so much felt for my partner but as a protection of/for  myself, and the fact I don't want to have this exposed yet to strangers and people who will judge me.

I need to be stronger. I may never be but when...if....the times comes, I'll know it

Elle