So, tomorrow is my daughters day out with two of her best friends, she turns six on Sunday. I am here thinking that her dad has no concept of what his apperance does to me or how it looks in public. I have been sick with something viral since Wednesday and I come home from work Wednesday and now he has escalated to obvious blush and obvious eye shadow. So, I dont even want to go tomorrow because i have such anxiety around him this way. I cannot even gather the strength to tell him to try and dress like the man he is tomorrow especially with tonight he is going out to the gay bar again. But, i dont get why for these special occasions he has to take away my joy? Why cant he just wear a sports bra to flatten his chest and no makeup and wear some normal jeans and a baggy shirt. But he is so consumed with himself that anyone else is supressing him.