I took my wedding cake topper, my engraved flutes, my engraved cake cutter, my unity candle and threw it in the trash that my stbx mtf husband will see because "he" does the trash. I didnt hide in in a bag.  It is there for him to see. Why should I keep these things? HE has screwed over this marriage in a way I cannot even verbalize. It sounds so bad but anything to me would seem better than this. Drugs. Alcohol. I know that sounds messed up  because those things are serious and are horrible but seeing your husband look like a damn woman and knowing everything you had for two decades has become this makes anything else seem so much less toxic. He is going to open a new account for just HIS money and my measly 16 hours a week for 14 dollars an hour pays for groceries and the sewer and i may have 200 hundred left for medications (which i started taking half of my wellbutrin in anticipation of saving money) and for any extras feminine products, dental visit because i have no insurance so that is like 200 dollars, i need new contacts and have no vision insurance, so i have to save everything left over so esentially i cant take my daughter to do anything because i wont have any money. I finally am going to seek some legal advice because i dont know what my rights are. I have to write down everything that has happened over the last 20 years especially the last year. I saved every conversation and emailed my google hangouts to myself at work so he cant delete them. He cant delete my microsoft vault because you need a passcode which is emailed to do that. I never thought i would ever feel so broken that I do right now. I just want my life back and it wont ever be the same and I dont want to start over.