Hi everyone,
I am waiting for my husband to come out as gay. So far he is saying he is bisexual, but I am altmost sure he is gay. We are married for 18 years and have 3 great children.
When we got married he was 33 and I was 22.  Apparently I was his first girlfriend, he had some sexual experience with women and with a man.  I knew since the begining he is bi, I was fine with it.
Later on I discover in computer history a lot of gayporn and he also admitted to me he was on gay video chat. I didn’t make a big deal out of it as he wasn’t cheating on me in real world.
When I was pregnant with our first child, I find in iPad nude pic he sent to someone… I was devastated, but I managed somehow. I found out he was writing erotic gay stories and published it on the internet.
Our sex life was poor - maybe once a mont, if I was lucky.
In april 2022 he asked me if I would mind if he has occasionally contact with men. That gave me mental breakdown and ended up on medication.
Since last year he is working in Berlin and I live with kids in another country.
Lately he had his ear pierced and tatoo done. I suggested to him open relationship, now he has prep and will get vaccination for hpv and hepatitis. He enjoys being in company of gay comunity, once a month he is attending AA meeting for gays. Despite of all this facts and more I didn’t mention, he keeps saying he is bi… Is anyone here with similar experience?
Sorry for the long post. I cannot wait for his coming out day. I want to move on with my life and find a good partner for me.
I am so happy I found a place where I can talk about this topic.