Do a Google search of Vera television series. (Brenda Blethyn plays the police detective Vera.) It'll show you options for streaming if you are in the US or something else if you're not. I had a 10-day free trial on Britbox.
The one I posted about is Series/Season 13, episode 1. The free options to watch don't show this episode.
No - It's not too late. It's not hopeless. Even there, there's something I can do. I just have to find the will. Ikiru (1952), film directed by Akira Kurosawa