Nobody's sexuality should be defined in terms of being able to bear children. Looking back, it's clear that my sexuality was mostly for that - for the function of bearing children. I guess we're called "breeders". It's so degrading, but his sexual interests towards me ran parallel to the years I was having children. Then the "get away from me" words and mentality became the norm towards my sexual advances that were based on normal heterosexual desires and my love towards him. He mostly wanted me for our kids but not for me and for who I was and will always be, a woman.