Nobody's sexuality should be defined in terms of being able to bear children. Looking back, it's clear that my sexuality was mostly for that - for the function of bearing children. I guess we're called "breeders". It's so degrading, but his sexual interests towards me ran parallel to the years I was having children. Then the "get away from me" words and mentality became the norm towards my sexual advances that were based on normal heterosexual desires and my love towards him. He mostly wanted me for our kids but not for me and for who I was and will always be, a woman.
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Hi Jill, This must have been very hurtful and must have made you feel used. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
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Billie,
No, it's not just you "with rage a lot of the time". I have a boat load of it. The only thing that keeps it controlled is my age, high blood pressure and the fact that I have three little dogs that need me. One is 13.5 years old and travels off my moods. I love him so much I'm trying to keep calm for his sake. With what they've been through for years with him here and the open battles, this quiet loving house and me is a welcome relief unless I rage on....
Judy
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