Married for about 13 years now, can’t believe it’s been so long.

I found out about my husband few months into our wedding. I wanted to divorce right away but due to cultural norms, it’s not something that can be broken off without solid reasons. I didn’t want to out him to my father, even though I told my mother.

Anyway after many tears from both sides, I decided to give it a shot. He doesn’t seek out anyone but he’ll be looking at inappropriate content, he was previously on the Grindr app too, not sure what that was all about, but according to him it’s all for fun.

In this process we have three kids, at this point I don’t know what or if anything is left between us. According to him, he loves me. I don’t know anything. I don’t even know why I’m here writing all this. I feel like I have to keep it together for the sake of my kids. I feel dead inside. He’s an amazing father and husband, he will bring you the moon if you said you wanted it.

I am just looking for support in trying to manage my feelings because I feel duped and alone.

Last edited by Brokenheart (April 19, 2025 9:32 pm)