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- Rob
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Re: In so much pain
Foolme...I used a phone app called "Calm" that has ocean, rain, forest sounds etc.
How many nights I watched the ocean waves longing to be on a beach somewhere.
Now a days I sleep better as I feel safer. But I still wrap myself in my grandmother's blanket and distract myself with whatever u tube video to drift off to sleep. I don't sleep late though..dont think I ever will again.
"For we walk by faith, not by sight .." 2Corinthians 5:7
- NHdad
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Re: In so much pain
Hello all,
The past 2 weeks have been tough, but I did see my Pcp and he prescribed medication for anxiety and that really helped with my sleep.
I've been reaching out to friends and that helps.
One of the things I have to keep reminding myself is that I deserve better, I deserve a full loving relationship, I deserve to be desired again.
Thank you all your support
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Thread Starter- lily
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Re: In so much pain
Anxiety. Oh boy I had that. I remember it must have in my 30's at some point I remember lying on the sofa holding onto my tummy and thinking 'I am anxious all the time - my childhood must have been really bad to make me like this'.
No it wasn't. No I was anxious because i was in a situation that I should be anxious about. I read somewhere some health care professional saying that your feelings are often a more reliable indicator of your environment than your thoughts. Yup. Couldn't agree more. with hindsight it is clear. When I moved away from him and into my own home I felt myself get more relaxed from the first day. I get scared sometimes and I worry about things as much as ever but that gnawing low grade anxiety at the back of my mind, that's gone.