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walkbymyself wrote:
.... I have to live with my own inner dialogue.....
That's it Walk. That inner dialogue is a real bitch and for myself is something I recognized early on, and was able to acknowledge. And that I needed to 'fight back'...overcome it ...anticipate it when it happened.
Hugs from me to you
Elle
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My G**, Walkbymyself, yes. I also have so many regrets and "should haves." As a cis-gender woman, I was trained from a young age to be yielding and cooperative. I should have been so much more aggressive in my divorce, but I just wanted it to end.
Now, I fear that if I should run into my ex, I will unload all of the pain and sadness and humiliation and . . . everything he left me with.
And he'll laugh and not get it and cut me down again. So I have decided to preserve the fragile peace I have in my head by avoiding him (now her) at all costs.