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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
Keep posting Final - we get it. I promise you the time will come when you are feeling better and back to your old self.
This is not just something you can move on from - it's a profound deception - it takes time. Your mind will come back to normal, your heart will heal. Meanwhile, the dreams will help you make sense of things. Do you have family you can talk with and spend a bit of time with?
You sound like a good man to me and a class act - I've never met you in person but I have respect for you, for the way you are handling this. You don't have to be able to see the road ahead, one step at a time is all you need - good luck with the therapy, tell us how it went.
- Ellexoh_nz
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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
final_anon wrote:
....... I really don't know how to move on from this..........
It'll suck. For longer than you think it should. But as you move through this process and slowly see what your life would be if you stayed with your spouse....your attitude will begin to shift. You'll develop coping methods for the triggers like the dreams and thoughts you have and in the end you'll see the path you should take....
....and the reasons you should take it. Be well.
Elle
KIA KAHA
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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
Keep posting Final - we get it. I promise you the time will come when you are feeling better and back to your old self.
This is not just something you can move on from - it's a profound deception - it takes time. Your mind will come back to normal, your heart will heal. Meanwhile, the dreams will help you make sense of things. Do you have family you can talk with and spend a bit of time with?
You sound like a good man to me and a class act - I've never met you in person but I have respect for you, for the way you are handling this. You don't have to be able to see the road ahead, one step at a time is all you need - good luck with the therapy, tell us how it went.
I do have family, they are far away from me though, so we don't talk in length often, I found friends I've been able to confide in, that have given me strength to keep going, and yet still when I'm alone in my apartment, I just feel the weight of it all. I'm trying, I want to get better, but it is clear that it will take a while, my fear is the unknown, how much time is it going to take, and I know there is no answer to that, I just have to keep going. Thank you for your words, they ease my heart.
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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
....... I really don't know how to move on from this..........
It'll suck. For longer than you think it should. But as you move through this process and slowly see what your life would be if you stayed with your spouse....your attitude will begin to shift. You'll develop coping methods for the triggers like the dreams and thoughts you have and in the end you'll see the path you should take....
....and the reasons you should take it. Be well.
Elle
Thank you Elle, your words give me hope. Truly thank you everyone for letting me vent here and responding back so I don't feel alone, really from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
I think you'll find a lot of sympathy here, we all know how intense it is. Normal operations will return, it takes time. Your good humour will reassert itself, your own company will bring ease. There's a lot of life to come, moments that you will treasure.
Look after yourself at all times. I thought of it like bruising - the blows have already happened now that you see the colours on your skin, it's okay you are safely on the road to healing.
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Re: Discarded during Christmas after 6 years
I think you'll find a lot of sympathy here, we all know how intense it is. Normal operations will return, it takes time. Your good humour will reassert itself, your own company will bring ease. There's a lot of life to come, moments that you will treasure.
Look after yourself at all times. I thought of it like bruising - the blows have already happened now that you see the colours on your skin, it's okay you are safely on the road to healing.
Thank you for your words, it might not feel like it at times, but I am on the path of healing yes, today was pretty rough, got a wave of sadness at work, but called my sister and that helped a bit, if it wasn't for my friends and family, and you guys I don't know how I would be faring. Thank you again, truly from the bottom of my heart.
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