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... and I feel nothing. My two adult sons came in for brunch then we caught a train out to where their car was parked. They went home and I'm catching the train back into the city. To fill my day.
I feel dead inside. Without my sons I think I would just have stayed in bed.
I am empty.
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Elle, I’m sorry to hear of your pain today. Holidays are fraught with this scrambled/separated family situation. And on top of that, adult children often have such short visiting timelines. I’m sending you a (virtual) hug.
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Merry Xmas, Elle. I'm on my own today, too. I might just go out and hop on a bus downtown, just to get out and see the city (we had snow yesterday, so NYC is actually having a white Xmas for a change).
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Hi Elle,
I'm sorry you're having a rough day. There's so much pressure around the holidays to have a "magical time with the perfect family" and it's just not true - for most of humanity, I suspect. I'm alone for most of the day as well, after a visit from my son this morning. I suspect your day is over by now - hopefully tomorrow will feel better.
Sending hugs and warm wishes your way,
Anon 765
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Jupiter, Walk and Anon.....thanks for your thoughts.
Just before xmas I attempted to start a conversation with my trans grandson and said "you're trans and I'm gender critical....but maybe we can find common ground and talk face to face". He replied telling me he was blocking me and to not contact him again. Then his mother/my daughter emailed and told me she was ending our r'ship, blocking me and to not reply.
But today I learned my other daughter was coming for a visit next week
and bringing her 6 month old...so, it's swings and roundabouts
E