When I got with my ex, he let me know he was questioning his sexuality. Well, we were just friends at this time ( I just moved to this state and he was my first friend in the area ) but gradually the relationship turned romantic. He let me know early in he had many unique fetishes (men wearing latex female masks, morphsuits, crossdressing). I overlooked this at the time because I was fairly confident and didn't see this as being a "forever" relationship and I would just let it dissolve when it did. He then ended up letting me know a few of his male friends he wanted to have sex with, and even told one of them "I love you so much I would let you **** my girlfriend." 

I broke up with him because I thought he was gay, and he would beg for me back and I have severe abandonment wounds so I would come back every time. Plus, I have never connected with someone like this in my entire life. He had been in prison for 5 years (out for 5 once I met him) and one time when I was using the strap on with him.. he told me to "**** me like we are in prison." I sort of freaked out and he never did that again.

We had fairly? regular sex. I am 24 and he is 32 so... I don't know. He really only liked having sex with me when I was wearing the morphsuit though. But after a year or so into the relationship, I would start getting triggered and spiraling and I would leave because I thought he was gay and hiding it.. and he would get physical with me. Either restrain me and even strangling me. I still always came back. I understood where he was coming from because of his trauma with prison, growing up in a bad area, and his dad being physical with him as a child.

Eventually someone he was in prison with reached out to me and asked for his info, and said they used to have sex all the time and he cared about him. My ex told me this guy was lying to just get us to break up and it was kind of an off limits subject because it would always result in a huge fight/ violence.

A few days ago, the day after my birthday, this guy reached out again after I ended a session with a local psychic who basically told me he WAS gay and I was only hurting myself. This entire time he has said to me he was 80% straight/ 20% gay, so he said he never lied and I am just projecting my own insecurities onto the relationship and ruining it. He loves me more than anything he says, and guilts me by reminding me of everything he's done for me.
I left the other day when the prison guy reached out again, and my ex got physical yet again cornering me and calling me every name in the book. 

I just wish he would look me in the eyes and tell me the truth after everything I have done for him. I already know the answer but... obviously dude is in denial right?
Thanks.