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February 16, 2023 2:06 pm  #11

Re: He says he never questioned his sexuality until now...

I have a few thoughts based on many conversations I’ve had with lgbt people who’ve come out later in life. Straight people rarely  question their sexuality and imo, if he’s turned on by male gay porn he is not straight. There are different kinds of attraction. Romantic, intellectual, relational, sexual, etc. Maybe he’s now still attracted to you as a person but not sexually. Coming to terms with one’s sexuality has a pronounced affect on things.

He may have participated in sex and romantic things with you because he thought he should, didn’t understand that he didn’t feel how straight people felt, etc. It’s entirely possible he didn’t know/repressed things so hard that he didn’t put things together. Religious indoctrination is powerful.

Will he swing back? I hear the hope in that question. I had that hope. No one can tell you that, not even him. Just know that I’m 2 years post disclosure, I waited for 20 months for her to figure herself out hoping for her to find desire for me. In that time I’ve become depressed, angry, resentful, miserable, attempted suicide and feel generally disgusting, unlovable, undesirable and empty. Waiting for your person to choose between you and a different life and watching and listening to them reject you on a core level of your being will cause harm you can’t understand without going through it.

No one needs to have sex to know their orientation.

Please believe him and make your decisions based on whether being married to a gay man in a sexless, loveless marriage is what you REALLY want.

All the best to you!


February 16, 2023 7:03 pm  #12

Re: He says he never questioned his sexuality until now...

KO_KO'd wrote:

....Does he need to have had sex with a man to be certain he is gay?


Do you need him to have sex with a man to be convinced he is?

My partner only had to tell me that one day he may be "fucked by a man" for me to lose any trust I had that he would keep me safe. That's when I decided to never be intimate with him ever again


KIA KAHA                       

February 17, 2023 7:34 pm  #13

Re: He says he never questioned his sexuality until now...

Hi KoKo,

He sounds like gay-in-denial, and so does his father.

Gay-in-denial is a thing.  

I believe a lot of the rationale is 'even though it's men I am attracted to I can have sex with a female so I'm not gay am I'.  

Typically it is a lot easier for young gay men to have sex with women than after middle-age arrives.

There's no swinging or percentages involved, just the shifts that come with ageing.  oh and maybe he is emotionally involved with a man already, that looks like a possibility because of him opening up the conversation with you.

So I feel for you because it looks like this is coming on the top of your children needing a lot of support.

wishing you all the best, Lily



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