I have to say, it made me laugh which was part of why I did it. On the whole it seems ridiculous but I am thinking what the hell, may as well try it *snorts with laughter* I'm just glad that something is making me laugh these days. 

My issue is that any woman I meet, the only way she can gain my trust is through copious amounts of sex.

Because talking is not safe.  Talking can be lies.  My marriage was a lie.

The proof is in the pudding.  Trust only follows repetitive sessions of incredible sex.

However, as we all know, relationships don’t operate that way.  So I’m screwed forever.

Almost everyone on a dating app wants to talk talk talk to build trust.  And I’m agog at this. 

The only way I’m trusting you is when you are naked and I’m naked and we are actively going at it. 

Otherwise, you are just here to take from me.  That seems so obvious to me now that I don’t know how I missed this basic universal dynamic before.

I don’t know.  I just know that being married to a GID lesbian narcissist who turned my sexual appreciation for my wife into something suspicious and ultimately problematic, has left me feeling incredibly bitter.

I want to want women but if I can get past feeling like my sexual desire must be suppressed to please women, then I have to deal with the fact that women only want me for my resources.

So, it isn’t about becoming a certain kind of man than it is that this is where toxic women have forced me.

Victo wrote:

I don’t know. I just know that being married to a GID lesbian narcissist who turned my sexual appreciation for my wife into something suspicious and ultimately problematic, has left me feeling incredibly bitter.

I want to want women but if I can get past feeling like my sexual desire must be suppressed to please women, then I have to deal with the fact that women only want me for my resources.

So, it isn’t about becoming a certain kind of man than it is that this is where toxic women have forced me.

I can understand you're hurt but finding a woman to f her way into your good graces?
Yea, good luck with that. Balance is good. Talk, make sure you are in sync, then see if you mesh physically.
As far as trust? Hell I haven't completely trusted anyone in my life since I was 9 and molested by my brothers. You manage with limited trust. Maybe it's even a good thing because you keep your head about you.
I don't much care if I ever have sex with another human again, but I'm old and disabled. I've also had my fun, and I mean a lot of it when I was younger and in a relationship where we were into some very kinky stuff.
Now I think when this marriage ends I'll stick with being asexual. It's not worth the effort lol.