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October 21, 2019 5:35 pm  #1


25 years!

So tomorrow is our 25th wedding anniversary. Do you think we will doing anything special? Nope.
I'm sure he'll be outside on the pool deck smoking a cigar and watching the world series while I'll be sitting at my computer trying to get more clients for my failing business. This is my life! This has been my life for a LONG time. No knight is shining armor for me. 


“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain, when you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” ~ Haruki Murakami ~
 
 

October 21, 2019 6:08 pm  #2


Re: 25 years!

Are there any other people in your life who know your anniversary and who may acknowledge it? Probably not, a couple's anniversary is usually between them right?
We never married, and even though I tried to make Valentines Day mean something....it's around the time we started living together......'he' never seemed interested in having a "day that was ours" so it's no stab in the heart for me, simply proof that I was never going to make a disinterested heart see the joy in something I felt was special

But anyway.....if you started seeing the date as "The day I started to move on to a different way of Living" it may help with the change of mindset you'll need to move away from something (your anniversary) that used to mean something


KIA KAHA                       
 

October 21, 2019 8:29 pm  #3


Re: 25 years!

We have to be our own shining knights--and find our armor.

 

October 21, 2019 10:35 pm  #4


Re: 25 years!

Anniversaries were always stressful for me..no matter what I did it was never good enough.
For my last annivary when we were together I took her our to dinner and gave her jewelry...it was,in my mind, one last attempt to get her back.  It was like the pick me dance. 

Instead of feeling foolish,I would like to think that God saw me trying.

Let him do whatever he wants then.   Go visit friends or go out and treat your self to a self care day..


"For we walk by faith, not by sight .."  2Corinthians 5:7
 

October 25, 2019 10:06 pm  #5


Re: 25 years!

Rob wrote:

Anniversaries were always stressful for me..no matter what I did it was never good enough.

Same for me. All attempts weren’t good enough and I was accused of being thoughtless no matter the energy I put in it.

I’m completely embarrassed for the effort I put in the marriage except for the fact that I feel stupid for trying instead of failing at a non existent “what may be” that I don’t even want.

As for him ignoring your anniversary, treat yourself to an escape. Just disappear for a few days and say nothing. Even if you wind up at a Motel 6 an hour away. Consider It your break alone in peace instead of alone with an a-Hole.

 

October 27, 2019 2:25 pm  #6


Re: 25 years!

Yea, it sucked. Didn't do a thing. Guess I won't expect much more for my 60th next year. If I had a close friend to do something with I would. Maybe I will just go visit my sister up north. She knows nothing (and probably never will). I just wish I still had that 'best friend' to confide in.


“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain, when you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” ~ Haruki Murakami ~
 
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October 27, 2019 11:23 pm  #7


Re: 25 years!

Roo,

And there you go.. his actions tell you all you need to know.       Definitely go for that visit..

 


"For we walk by faith, not by sight .."  2Corinthians 5:7
 

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