I have not posted in a while. Been doing a lot of soul searching and finding strength in myself. Working on my physical and mental health and I am in a better place now than ever before. My wife, the love of my life( I don't think this will ever change) moved into a new place 2 weeks ago. We had a great few months living together, working on how our new lives will intertwine.  I still think she is having some sort of midlife crisis, last-ditch effort to see if she is missing something in her life. There have been too many instances where we would look at each other and we could tell there was still something there. We told our children and her parents that we are separating, and will soon divorce. Her mother thinks she has lost her mind, and is still very active in my life and not so much hers. We exchanged our rings in the place we were married and they are stored in my safe with some sand from the beach where it took place.

Our relationship has entered new phase, it is different, but similar if that makes sense. We are friendly, supportive and do things together. We still love each other, just in a different way. I have begun looking for a new relationship. I am not in a hurry, but will not resist if someone shows interest. A few months ago I would have considered this cheating, now not so much.

Thought I would share an update, there is a future for us in this, the worst situation that we never asked for. Persevere, focus on yourself and there is  future.