I'm so glad I found this place - I felt so alone. I just need to vent a little bit - and would love some insight because I can't see clearly.  

Almost a year ago I found pictures and emails confirming what I thought all along, and did ask him directly. My husband was bisexual/questioning/gay and cheated on me twice physically as well as hundreds of emails over many years. He became a blathering buffoon after swearing he wants to stay with me. I gave him my ultimatum, get medically checked out, go into therapy, move, change his traveling options for his job and by the way - monogamy isn't an option anymore. He did all of it. He even "fixed" according to the therapist his issues about how much our relationship sucked before and how little I was asking from him. The problem is, he's done everything I have asked and more - but I'm still not happy. I'm still hurt and distrustful for it. I know I'm not crazy, yet. Now we're a year later. I love the new city, our place, but there are days when I look at him and wonder if he truly wants me.

He says he regrets all of it and wants a new future for us together moving forward. I think he regrets getting caught. Maybe instead of focusing so much on him I should do something for myself. Or maybe cut him loose since I'm barely in my 30s.