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The days are easier the more he acts like an asshole.
Preparing myself for the day he threatens to move out, and I'm ready for it - and I tell him to go if that's what he's going to do. We sleep in separate rooms. I know it's going to be easier to heal when he does leave.
On my best days (the days I remember the most what a selfish asshole he is), I cry less than 5x.
On my worst days (the days when him being my rock and support feel most stolen), I cry more than 5x.
What does STBX mean?