He's just trying to normalize it so that it's not as repugnant to you.

This! ^

Not only do I feel he's trying to normalize it, I believe he's trying to paint himself as victim. His tales of being taken advantage of by a boy 5 years older then him, and then this whole "porn brainwashing" from age 9 thing he's selling.

I'm getting the constant sensation of manipulation here. He's victimized me for years, but somehow he's really the victim, the one in need of help, and the one deserving of understanding?

Diabolical.

Link from previous post:
https:// www.yourbrainonporn.com/ask-us-iam-attracted-to-gay-transsexual

What a long strange trip it's been. 9 years of this surreal rollercoaster. I'll try not to type a novel here. Do forgive my blunt speech, I don't have it in me to mince words right now.

He says he has a porn addiction. He blames everything on the porn addiction. He states it has twisted him into something he is not.

The background -
At age 5 he had homosexual encounters with neighbor boys, one in particular more than others. This other boy was 10. He recalls being upset at first, but then liking it and willingly participating thereafter. It consisted of oral and hand jobs. He never told any adults nor did he ever try and avoid it. It went on for around a year until his family relocated.

At age 9 he discovered porn in his uncle's room at his grandma's house while staying there during the summer. He watched the vhs he'd found daily and thumbed through all the magazines. He says he was particularly fascinated by the penis on screen, the size especially, and money shots were terribly exciting. He'd rewind and watch the money shots again and again. When he went back home, he started watching porn at night on his parent's cable system every night.

At age 12 a friend showed him computer porn. It started with the old thumbsites where he would go through the pics seeking out vid clips to masturbate to. He would do this for hours daily. He started collecting and saving his favorite pics and vids, dividing them into catagory folders. He started a transsexual folder right off the bat. Gangbang, trans on females and males, became swift favorites. At age 15 he added mmf bisexual content. By age 17 he added gay content. Throughout it all, one thing developed that stayed consistent. His love of extremely large penis and money shots. No matter the porn type, penis size and copious male orgasm were requirements. So much so that what is referred to as "cumpilation" videos became a routine.

During his porn career he would try and simulate the videos as much as possible. This in