I'm physically exhausted, as it was one of my life's most challenging mental moments. However, I KNOW it is the right path for me and my children. I was going over the process with my almost ex-husband yesterday, and he had the nerve to ask if I was sure this was what I wanted. I took the opportunity to tell him no; I didn't want to find myself married to someone who broke the covenant of our marriage. The audacity of him asking me this question when he is the one to destroy this marriage by expecting me to accept that he's emotional and physical connections to his 'new' friend. I ended that conversation by telling him to stop lying to yourself. It's not normal for a married man to spend all of his time with a particular group of people, and you're not gay. I asked him if he'd heard of Interpersonal relationships or the saying "Birds of Feather. Flock together". So please don't ask me if this is what I want! That's an insult! I can see if he has changed his behaviors and TRIED fighting for me. This man spends 3-4 nights with his new friends! He quickly got off the phone!
Since this is an uncontested divorce and all children's matters are settled, I should be divorced by early May! I believe the hard part is over, but these steps are painful. I'm slightly numb today, but I know better days are ahead!
