It's just a temporary vacuum. I think many of us have that initial feeling. It's OK to take a break, although I think I'd suggest leashing up the dogs and taking that sit down somewhere in the great outdoors. Good luck with introducing the new fur baby.

I've been motoring along quite nicely today actually. I feel....free. I went and took the dogs for a long walk. I've been working on a paper for my latest course (only 3 more to go and I'm done my Masters!)

I knew it was going too smoothly though......my little brat of a Pumpkin darted out the door from the room in the basement and ran into the furnace room. She is now somewhere in narnia in the boxes under the stairs. Thankfully there's nothing under there she can get into trouble with, but I also can't find her in the box narnia as of yet. I have been going down and shaking treat bags, calling, and trying to persuade her to come out with no luck yet.

So, I guess I'm stuck on cat time now waiting for her to come out. She was a bit stressed, so I'm not surprised she's hiding, but I wish I could find her. I'm debating how much I want to try to crawl through the boxes after a tiny cat lol

I'm glad I got her though, I wish I had done this ages ago. It's just one of those things I've always wanted to do and never did because he didn't want to. It feels like the first decision I've made in a long time. It's quite liberating.

I don't know what is going to happen in the next little while. So I'm just trying to take it one moment at a time. This is not what I expected out of life, but maybe the Universe has better plans for me? I'm working on being positive. We're all working out the journey to healing one step at a time! 
 

Anon2222 wrote:

I understand and feel the exact same way. We can get through this and we will survive. There’s no more deception, lies, heaviness on our shoulders.

I’m exhausted and just want to sit and do nothing but I also want to clean, decluttering and purge.

sorry to hear that Anon - doesn't the cat shelter bear any responsibility?  it doesn't seem right that your insurance won't pay and neither with they.

It's a hard slog so just for a while park all self criticism at the door - you need all the hugs and support you can get right now. yours most of all.  here's one from me.

My ex also did the big reveal and exited the home and the relationship. I started going to an early service at a nearby church to be around other people and meditate. There was a pamphlet there that I picked up aimed at widows but I found it helpful for my situation. No casseroles, no funeral, no insurance and I was on my own. He was gone.The marriage was over and for the first time in my life I was going to be living alone.

I drew strength from thinking of my female ancestors who had been left widows with young children at a time when there were no jobs for women. Entering another marriage was usually how they survived, unless they could take in boarders. I wasn't going to have to do either because I had options. For starters I could get an attorney and make sure I received a what I was entitled to. 

Getting through the property and divorce stuff is hard and you don't have a concrete base to build your future on. Emotionally days I kept busy and at nights I would remember things that seemed strange at the time but that I didn't understand. There was anger. - at him and also at myself for not connecting the dots. That's when somehow I found the Straight Spouse Network and had some long conversations with woman
who told me that it was nothing I did that caused him to come out of the closet and that I could get through this and come out better...

Be patient with yourself and love and yourself when you don't make a home cooked meal. Try to develop  a wicked sense of humor to help your through the rough patches. As Dorothy Parker said, "Time wounds all heels."