Thank you for your candid reply! I know, it is really worse than the house on fire!!!  When I write it down I see it, but in my heart, this was my partner for 8 years whom I had amazing trips and "loved" me and my son.  I was unaware for most of the relationship about his other life.  I am not at no contact but it is still hard realizing the life " I thought" I would have with him, will no longer happen. I am working on myself, therapy, yoga,  podcasts,  circles and God. All of this to stay away from him. I wish I could say it was easier. I miss the good parts of him, being with him all day ( we worked together ) and just spending time with him. So technically I miss my ex 'best friend", or the version of him that I thought I knew  

Last edited by Malex (July 9, 2024 2:19 pm)