Elle,
I am so sorry to hear about your story. I know It must be very hard. I am also new on this platform and seven month since I found out that my husband is gay. I know it is very uncomfortable topic to talk about. I talk to anyone who wants to listen. But will love to meet someone who went through it as well. Maybe, I need to start a group myself. I am going to figure it out to, thou. I hope you are around here so I can hug you and seat down with you over coffee/tea to chat. The pain is unbearable. No sorry in the part of my husband. He is always gaslighting me to the point I almost believed that I am crazy. Very sad. It is an emotional abuse. But I know I will be OK. And you will be, too.