I cut mine (not the same one as you) in half for a couple weeks a half every couple of days and then stopped..   I definitely can cry again.     Give it time.     Some days I think I need them again but I did not like being on them.    I may have been tired for a bit but then I generally don't sleep.    I'm feeling better physically now and hope I make it.    

 

Hi VC12 and Rob. Thanks for the responses.

I actually toughed it out about six months after Dday, and then my dad died. It threw me into a tailspin that scared me a little, so that's when I started ADs. I've had some therapy but didn't find someone who truly gets what this is all about.

Overall I feel pretty strong, and I'm a positive person. I got out of infidelity fast and finished the divorce in record time. I'm thinking this one-year anniversary is triggering me a little, that maybe I should wait a little longer to finish with the ADs.

Trust me, I've had time to process and I've been doing the work. I'm good with feeling what I feel, I just don't want to go back to being a crying-all-day mess. And I want to get my energy back, which is why I was wondering about "withdrawal."

Hmmm, fun terms for Dday? To me it felt like an atom bomb, I had no clue until a week earlier. After 25 years of marriage. Id like to have a more empowering term. But what?

Probably not much help, but I think there is almost always an adjustment when getting off meds. I don't think it necessarily means there is something still "wrong" just because you feel different at first. That being said, I'm not sure how one would know if they still needed to be on the drugs or not. I guess those are questions for a doctor. I might try to see a psychiatrist rather than a family doctor to manage this.

I've been on both Wellbutrin and Prozac for years now - at least 12 years on the Wellbutrin and maybe 7 on Prozac. I have no reason to think about getting off of either. I become a raging mad woman otherwise. I was like this before TGT, though. I prefer to think of it as a chemical imbalance that I correct through prescriptions. But I also don't have any side effects that I know if.

Kel

Keepinghope,

You sound like you are on the right track, keeping tabs on how you are feeling, and if it gets to where you need to stay on or return to taking the medication, then that's what you need.  All of this is so incredibly exhausting, the emotional stress and the 1 year anniversary is an energy zapper I'm sure.  I think taking care of yourself is the best thing you can do, and find support here.  i  am learning how to do that myself.  Hard after so long not doing so.  

Good for you Sue..     It still amazes me ....we're on all kinds of medication and going to therapy etc..  Our gay spouses see nothing wrong with what they are doing..  

I'm trying to get on with my life so to me that means getting off the ADs that made me shake..my divorce can be described as the earthquake from hell;  the trauma of betrayal made me shake, the gay rage made me shake, and then the ADs made me shake..    My doc denied they should make my hands tremble but they did.    Anyway I'm steady now provided I avoid the gay narcissistic rage.  no contact helps a lot.

That all said,  I would take them again in a second...  One needs to be so stoic and strong against the gay sense of superiority and entitlement...against the wickedness. 


 

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