I recommend anger.

I know it sounds bad. People are afraid of anger.  They don’t understand it.

I was depressed for years after my marriage ended.  And now, after several years, I’m embracing anger.

And it makes me feel a tiny little bit better and motivates me to date again.

Anger sounds awful, but it beats depression.

Calm acceptance is best, but I’m nowhere near that.

Agreed, you can channel some forms of anger into something that propels you to make important changes you might normally shrink from. It's not a great place to live.

Last edited by Daryl (August 8, 2022 11:05 pm)

You are stronger than you know, Elle! The light in me sees the light in you. ❤️☀️🌷🙏🏾

Elle, I am proud of you for being stronger. Please know that I am holding a good thought for you. Only you can make the decision to stay or leave. Take as much time as you need.

Thanks all.

I am doing a bit better today, which is nice. The last week was dark. I honestly just didn't want to be alive anymore. I have never felt that depressed before. 

We have fought for the past couple days. I wish I could just rewind to when things were good and keep it there. At this point in time I would still seriously consider a MOM if he was open to it. Which makes me feel kinda pathetic. I have given everything to this marriage and it has been a real slap in the face to see I was the only one. It has left me feeling worthless, unlovable, disposable. 

So....still unwillingly crawling through the process. 

Currently shopping for a new coffee maker to make myself feel better. I have been slowly and systematically re-decorating the house to make it "mine". Still don't know how I'm going to afford the stupid thing...but at least the entire thing will be done in my own cat and dog motiff.

Last edited by Anon2222 (August 10, 2022 6:13 pm)