I know we've talked about desire/lack of desire and ups and downs in the transition from closeted relationship to MOM. I've been wondering lately about my own feelings of distance from my spouse as I try to locate myself. I know this is a space to figure myself out more, but am curious whether this was a phase that people who have made it work went through.

I mentioned to him how oddly synced so many people who chose to remain in MOMs are, which is me and my gay spouse, as well. He conjectured that the connection that the straight spouse (me) gave him to being the key to heteronormativity to him drove that desperate need. Now we're able to face each other more directly. And in doing so, I think I'm pulling away. I'm just curious whether I'm indeed on a trajectory towards a working MOM still. I am still mentally open to many possibilities.