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COVID is taking a backseat to unhealthy air due to nearby wildfires. This started August 17th. Have not been outdoors much since. We had a clear day yesterday. I thought it was over for this year. Today we have smoky skies again. Very disappointing!
My grief group is winding down. Have learned a lot about mourning & healing. I was (probably still am to a lesser degree) carrying pathological grief. I blamed myself for causing stress (divorce) which may have hastened his death. It wasn’t the case. Using poppers & his poor lifestyle choices hastened it. It was his time to pass on. I feel hopeful for the future. Not so burdened by guilt.
Hope everyone is doing well!!
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Thanks. His death shortly after the divorce threw me for a loop & gave me more to deal with. More thrown on top of his cheating, dishonesty & abuse. I know of people who were abused by a parent as kids, decided to go no contact as adults to save their sanity & went into a very deep grief when the abusive parent died.
Staying indoors constantly keeping the windows closed is no fun. My eyes are burning & am feeling dizzy - all smoke related. It’s causing me to ruminate more than usual.
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