sincerely thank you, lily, for your kind words. i understand that my emotions is on a rollercoaster right now. i just try to write things, that happens with me. it's like a diary, therapy and clearing my mind.

while being at counselor my wife told that her friendship with new passion started at april. just took some time to check our chat with her from past several months:

0 mentions about her sexuality changes, 0 mentions about feelings for women, 0 mentions about "look, my beloved husband and the best friend for 13 years, i have been shaked by therapy and my new findings, it's really important for me that you know what's happening, could we go to family therapy meeting together?", 0 mentions about plans for future.

bazilllion times mentioned how something hurts/feeling depressed/what did doctors found or didn't found, mentioned therapy, how it was painful to talk about childhood, how the lack of my attention/used medications/ailments drops down her sexuality and how there's something bad in household.

all that time she did send to me photos from traveling moments with her new girlfriend, she did wrote to me how she comforted her new girlfriend after she broke up, she did wrote that she would like to go with "friends" to the seaside and that i shouldn't think, that she's with "some dude sleeping at night", she did write, even when nobody asked on another day that "has no lover, really".

these details got me upset again. why she was involve me into all this?

i mean, i imagine that some man calls her wife and tells: sweetheart, there would be my friend from work, a very nice woman, she has some funny dogs. it would be fun. and brings there his lover for the last few months. this is sick, when you think. 

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