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YES. I have come back here today as I was veering towards contact with my GIDX - post holiday blues and just feeling the sadness of no contact after a lifetime together. It just is the antidote to come here and read the reality of the situation written large by so many in a similar situation.
It is like I have to make a list and really see how awful it is:
Betraying me with various random people and coming back to my bed for sex for over two decades!
Giving me crabs
Having an affair and then saying it was to check if he was gay???
25-26 hookups - usually they say 10% of the real number...so it is more
Always making our problems about me being needy and demanding.
Going to marital counselling to have him admit nothing, but make it again that he didn't have a voice (this was before I knew much - only gay porn at that moment!)
Having a gaydar account
Meeting someone regularly for over 5 years from said account
not taking any responsibility for his actions - the lover, the guy they put it on a plate - who doesn't want free blowjobs....omg the list must be replayed on days like this.....