My heart goes out to you Stay. know it will be hard but you've come so far and know you are doing the right thing. Your attitude only improve once your away from him. Trust me, you will find yourself again. But if you stay it will only get worse to the point of no return. Pat yourself on the back for making a confident but hard decision. You will be so much happier!
Keep posting and updating because you have a huge support system here.
I wish you the best.

Staywoke wrote;  "...I feel so unloved, unattractive, and alone.  I yearn for when I can be loved by a real man and have an authentic connection nothing like this farce of a relationship. .."


So so sorry.   I think  a lot of us here know the feeling..  We were trying our best and showing fierce devoted love and it just didnt seem to be enough..    I think a lot of us know now it was because they wanted something we could not give  (unless we change body parts).

I wanted to say though..just to bring you back to reality ... its NOT TRUE.   You are loved, attractive and feeling alone is really him hurting you.     Alone is ok ..we all feel lonely sometimes.. but having this feeling forced on us when in their presence...no...that is not morally right on any level.

Gather strength and build a support system.. work on getting back to a real moral and normal reality.