Ellexoh,

Maybe even you can't prevent the air from leaking out.  But only you get to decide when you're going to decide the balloon isn't worth all your effort trying to keep inflated anymore.  Only you get to decide what to do with the deflated balloon, and when to put it down.

I don't know how many times in my life I've thought, "WHY can't I just move from this spot? Why can't I make myself figure this out? Why can't I decide that being on the other side of this is okay?"  And I.just.couldn't. And then, unexpectedly, it happened.  Like flipping a switch.  There is an almost singular moment in every big life choice where suddenly, I let go of the balloon.  I could feel myself getting closer, but I never really decided to let go.  One moment my hand was holding the balloon, and the next, I watched my hand open and watched the balloon fly away without trying to catch it.  It was okay then.  I'd come to a crossroads.

I'll happen when it's supposed to.  And in that moment, you will be surprised - almost as if you're watching a movie of yourself. You will feel resolve and determination. You will know that this was the time.

Kel

Hello I'm new ...
I'm on year two of my husband coming out as trans ... he's out at work now (something he swore he'd never do), so I've put up the boundary and have asked him to keep it out of your home so as to keep some stability for our 4 year old son and 2 year old daughter who don't understand a thing.  Taking things one day at a time.

I like these posts.  Great to see regular updates.  It's a good exercise for people to sit down and think about how they are doing and where they are at.  Good to take stock in yourself and do a mental checklist. 

I'm doing well.  I think I'm through the hard parts of the experience and am probably back to a level of happiness that equals or surpasses where I was when I thought I had a good marriage.  I still have short bouts of anger and sadness when something triggers memories of the pain I went through, but those are fewer and I get over them so much more quickly.  I have created a new life for myself in terms of social network and activities.  The people and things I liked from my old life carry on, but there are so many new things.  Example.. I've always been big into cars.  I like owning and driving sports cars.  Now that I have more free time and can do whatever I wish with my funds I've turned that into a major hobby that takes up a huge amount of my free time.  I have 3 project cars in the garage.  On top of that I decided to get into photography and videography revolving around those cars.  So i've been learning how to make youtube videos and attending lots of cars shows.  It's really fun and has opened up a creative side of me that I never really knew existed. 
I started attending a new church and joined a singles group with that church.  It's been so fantastic.  I have so many more friends.. really great people!  
I'm hoping to meet a special someone one of these days/weeks/months/years..   But I'm ok working on myself and redefining who I am until that happens. 

Keep moving forward my friends!

OOHC,

Those are strong steps ..  I cried during most of my steps..all strong, necessary, inevitable steps.    If I look back now  (not at the time) I realize my GX went through the same steps...and didn't shed one tear.    I thank God for getting me away from a person like that.     That time in my life serves as both a place to avoid and a reminder of how better I am now.